Friday, February 18, 2011
Reflection
Cant upload pictures zzz...
Anw, my last LMS class last friday got me thinking.
By the age of 40, i do not want to be________.
Fill in the blank.
Many of us filled poor, terminally ill,unmarried, unhappy, divore...
Right now we are only 18, and we were asked to think of the future.
It was kinda of hard as we do not know what we want but we do know what we don't want.
From there, we can work our way through on how to avoid things we do not want.
Teacher asked a few question " Are you all enjoying what you are doing now?"
"Are you happy?" "Do you know what is your direction in life?"
My answer was "no"
i do not even know what is my purpose on earth nor what is my direction.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Birthday!!
Now i am 18 :)
can smoke and drink...haha..
received lots of wonderful sms :)
My poly friends are wonderful and sweet...they knew i dont like cakes
so we went to Pizza Hurt and i didnt know that.
At there we chatted nonsense and eat..haha
Then we head back to sch for tutorial
At home, went to Matthan Fish Market with family for dinner :)
made 3 wishes before i blew the candle :)
Pics will be uploaded some other times...
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
The past 17 years on Earth
Tomorrow is my Birthday..wow 18 soon :) so fast.
In my past 17 life, I had experienced lots of things…first accepting my skin condition eczema..waking up everyday regretting of scratching myself without knowing…all the marks and scars on my hand and legs..just like a tattoo that can’t seem to erase……putting cream that wouldn’t help and trying out lots of remedies that don’t work..there is no hope for it..
Next, accepting the fact that I am not smart…I am hardworking….not as smart as my brothers, neighbors, friends and cousins. The feeling really sucks; no one in my family can understand how I felt..i still remember PSLE, my mothers and brothers label me as “brainless” “stupid”…my heart literally hurts like a knife stab it..tears flow non-stop….worst my mum was angry that I went to Punggol Secondary School…but I am glad the nightmare was over :)after rain, there will be sunshine ;)
In my life there were also happy and memorable moments, I met great and best friends in my Secondary school, I enjoyed going to school and learnt new things…there were new experiences..sad, stressful and happy times..Secondary was the best moment in my life….i did not regret going to a secondary school..Instead I had gotten quite ok O level results…I also met great friends from British Council and I miss my clique..now I starting to enjoy and adapt to poly life..hahax…
My blaw tutor told us, “Grades are not everything in life”….it just kept me thinking for hours if it makes sense..somehow it does…guess “Health and happiness are everything in life”
Lots of things happened around me, and I realized we must cherish the people around us before it is too late and not to take things for granted….nothing will stay the same forever and love can’t be measured…..
CNY
I had an awesome Chinese New Year…reunion dinner at my Grandparents and Aunt house was delicious there was no steamboat but it was an 9 course dinner :)
After dinner, me and my went to the flora shops at Punggol and SPC to wash the car. Past by my secondary school..and memories started to flood my mind….thinking back those times and memories…
The rest of the Chinese New year went house visiting, bowling and pool till 1am :)
Sunday went to Chagin SAF Chalet..that place was beautiful with a platform where you can see the whole sea and nearby island. It was like a holiday in Bali, the wind was refreshing and the skies were clear, able to see airplane that flew past..
The chalet was organized by my mum Commander, his Birthday fall on the same day as mine :) the buffet was delicious, there were even waiter who prepare the food for you….then we lao yu sheng then I took a walk around the beach…walking alone allowed me to think and reflect about lots of things…looking at the stars in the sky made me happy…as if it was smiling at me..It cheered up my day. But stars made me sad too because it reminds me of something..those words
