Thursday, July 19, 2012
Thursday
Dialogue in the Dark was awesome :)
went in my my wisp group mates...we were blind for 30 mins.
The room was totally dark and all we had was a walking stick.
We had a guide called William, he guide us around the place.
After a while in the cold dark room, eyes were closed and the sense of hearing and touch became sensitive.
We took a boat there, cross the roads and enter a supermarket. The experience is cool...
I really applaud people with disability. They are able to live life to the fullest, no complaints and regrets. They accept who they are and adapt to the situation.
Unlike us, normal people forever complaining and comparing. Wondering why we are not perfect, why life is unfair, fretting over relationship problems and so on....
My brain just can't stop analyzing things...
saw a girl today, she is mentally challenge and has kidney problems..her mum is old around 50 plus...
I can't help thinking...why life is so unfair, why cant God stop people from suffering, why can't everyone born to be normal and has equal chances to live life normally. Why always good people has to suffer...Some people are born to enjoy wealth and health while some are fated to suffer for life. Why is that so?
Somehow our life story are sealed since the day we were born...
Going against destiny is hard...going against the opposing force isn't easy
Bcomm over!
Boardroom presentation is over! Bcomm cleared
However, was disappointed...i know i could have performed better but i didn't heed what my head was saying..i didn't prepared my fbo statements well.
Anw it was a wonderful day after all :)
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Today i feel so much better...
i dont need to feel like i am being sandwiched
any decision my friends made, i will support them
trust they will make the right choice :)
Today over msn, my close best friend Jolene
told me how she feels about our friendship
i was very touched...i didn't expect her to say
I only know Jolene since year 2 but only this semester
we are in the same class and chat...
it was awesome, initially i was worried i cant click with her
as our character are opposite..she is more open, sociable and expressive
while i am an introvert and quiet
starting off i do feel weird, afraid i would say something wrong and may affect our friendship and projects...
haha but after a 2 weeks i feel attach to the friendship
Taiwan trip i get to know her better :) we had awesome times and crazy long nights
frm there i know renee, xue er and kenji too :)
Jolene really changed the way i am...
i usually don't share my thoughts, feelings and secrets unless to my best friends
but to her i could, i can talk freely and be myself :)
she changed me in the sense, i become more chatty and open
*even josh says so*
haha anw Jolene i wont leave you to face problems by your own
i will be there when u need me *only if i am asleep ps*
i am sure our friendship will be counting not only this semester
I am just glad to have met such a friend :)
my year 3 life became more fun.
Cheer up kays, everything will be fine :D
ps i cant wait for exam to be over!!
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Lost direction in life..wandering around without a goal
Living day by day as it pass..
What's is the meaning and purpose of life
Till now i can't find the answers
I am really afraid that i will fall
We are all humans, and feelings are inevitable
if only feelings can be controlled
I can't step over the boundaries
glad we are good friends
always there when i am down
Never expect to stand any chance
Friday, July 6, 2012
Scars
Friends around me have been talking about relationship stuff..
when my friend told me her relationship problems, i feel bad as i could not
console her...
seeing her cried it made me wonder why is she so silly crying over a guy?
to me it isn't worth...guess she really love him alot.
In Taiwan, my room mates were sharing their stories about their relationship stuff..
all i can conclude everyone has scars and regrets...that's how i felt too. Is the way he made you felt that you can never forget..even till now. Even till now, i can't face him..it's just feels weird but it wasn't like that before..but the most hurting part is when he couldn't recognize or pretend not to see me. That's seriously hurts...i deserve it anyway.
anw..i am so gonna change my looks after poly life..i can't wait
TGIF
Fridays are awesome
Today was good! MRSH test was over but doubt i am able to get A..sianz
Anw after test went Bishan with Renee Jolene & Ys..lunch and headed to Renee's house.
Her room was beautiful and the way she played the guitar and sing was awesome :D
We played bridge game and had a talk session...
This semester my friends are so different from my year 1 and 2 clique, they are more out-going, funny, friendly and i am better able to communicate with them :)
The talk was inspiring...all of them had dreams and countries they want to go to..
and that kept my brain functioning...i felt like i has not grow up yet..
Anw they are rich, they have the money and time to travel overseas and stay for months...ys and jolene gonna helped out with their parents company while Renee off to London to study law....as for me hmmmm...i has not thought so far yet. Just taking one step at a time. Guess i need to start planning...but all i know now is i want to get into university..
Hearing them saying how rich they are....i don't feel i envy them..weird usually people will..i am contented with how my family status but 1 thing i know money can never buy family warmth. I appreciate the warmth of my family and the house though it isn't some lavish house...but it is the feeling that kept me going.
Next few weeks sch is gonna be crazy!!
