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Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Internship work seem to be the best distraction :)
feeling busy the whole day feels good
everything ended....sometimes i just wonder how to snap out of it..
why is it so tough...

Life is forever unfair to me..

Hmm i wonder whose intern life is as busy as mine..
cant believe even at home i am thinking and worrying about work
seriously those irresponsible promoters should just be fired.
They are making me going crazy.

Guess there are competitors everywhere

Sunday, October 28, 2012

True

Wendy, we believe God wants you to know ... that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.

You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.

This is so true...

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Friday :))

Thursday was horrible...but Friday was fun :)
Every Fridays are interesting.
hahah part of my job scoop on Friday was to be at Plaza Singapura to coordinate an event...Wendy Chin, Josh and his friend joined the event..for 2 hrs we were paid to talk :)

After the event, we went for dinner together with Ke Ying :)
Josh was worrying that dinner with his friend would be weird but it turned out fine.
As usual the day ended with ice cream :D :D

Reasons

"Everything happens for a reason"...can anyone tell me what are the reasons
My friend was right at least i had no regrets.
Another perspective was it was my loss....once you missed a chance it forever be gone.
But everything I did i had my own reasons.....
Guessed I destroyed my own chance again and again
But that's what you wanted and i granted your wish
Shouldn't you be happy.

Disappointed

Thursday at the training center i was supposed to present to the HQ people but in the end i failed.....the HQ guy still said "You look sad, don't be discouraged."
He still told me asking me to present wasn't to make us suffer..still tell me how he felt when he first presented. I wanted to tell him, no i wasn't nervous nor i had butterflies in my tummy.
My supervisor asked " You ok anot?"
Their intentions were to console me but it made me felt worst....

I was guilty for not preparing well enough
I did not practice as much as I did for bcomm presentation
So what if in sch my bcomm was B+...in real working world i cannot perform up to expectation.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Wide awake

(Totally described how i felt)

I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake

Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
I'm wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong

I'm wide awake
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
Till I woke up on
On the concrete

Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight
(Yeah I'm) Falling from cloud 9
I'm wide awake
Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I'm wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself - nooohooo
I'm wide awake

Saturday, October 6, 2012

As usual my answers are always implusive.
But i belive most of the words you said are true
All i need was a closure and cold hard truth.
But those replies had hopes in it...but i guess it is all over
I chose to walk away.
But i finally understand that misery that you once felt.
Everyone said give up...yeap is easy to say but hard to put it into action.
Hate taking bus home from work..passing by familar place
Time doesnt heal everything

Saturday...

Saturday was a tour around pasir ris...
Met jolene, ys and josh. Head down to Changi beach but was rainning :(
Plan 2, ys drove to ehub! We roam around shopping mall again with ice cream
And watched Taken 2.
Dinner at Pasir ris park :) the beer tate good but josh spilled it onto my jeans.
Haha i smell like beer :)
Next we stood on the seawall and chatted....
For once my mind stopped moving.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Valuable stories

This 2 weeks days and time passed really fast
wouldn't say it was a good week.
Immerse myself with task at work, and home i spam books, music and did lots of housework. Mum was satisfied. haha all i need was distractions.

Days at work does makes me happier,lunch time was the best :)
but stories at work is making me sad...firstly i have 2 kind of bosses.

One will tell me life stories....telling me about life, relationship problems and experiences, how i should protect my heart, how bastered guys should die and telling me i should learn golf and driving. He even told me i cant be honest as in life we cannot be honest to survive, telling me i can take off whenever i want to. I learnt lots of stuff from him and i can relate to it.

The other boss, will cheer me up at work with his funny actions. He is quite observant, notice that i am tired on certain days, asking if i am fine, notice my change in dressing, notice those scars on my hands and asking why isnt it healing. He will chat with me about studies, university, telling me about his uni and poly life, sharing me about his Japanese test experience, telling me about his sister who is same age with me, asking me if job so far is good. I am really thankful for those kind words.

I am so lucky to have 2 bosses with different character and thinking. They make me laugh :)

My the other colleague will tell me how god her boyfriend is. Seriously her boyfriend is good, those kind of people are already extinct.

All they did was to tell me about the real world, but none of it are making me feeling better instead it just kept me thinking. Thinking why some people life is smooth sailing, able to have relationship that last for 6 years and why life is so unfair.

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Wendy♥ a.k.a. BUNNY! :)
17 years old
9th FEB 1993
I LIKE to Eat, Read Books, Listen to Music, STARS& Earl Grey Tea!
Also I HATE people who Break promises and those who Don't mean what they say!

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