Tuesday, June 5, 2012
The beginning of the sufferings
School life is getting crazier each day... tons of projects and year 3 projects isn't easy... However, this semester with different group mates = Hell. Doing projects is much more tougher than in the past, a not motivated team is really hard to lead....oh well i shall take it in my stride...i care so much coz i want to get As no matter what. People lives around me are interesting...friend telling me about her relationship problems when i don't know how to answer..to me it was a trivial issue compare to my problems. If only problems can be solved, life would be so much better....so much stuff to worry and care about. If only i am able to care less, everything will be better too. There is a limit to what i can shoulder..everything except money is an issue...why is this happening to me. Human always want things that they could not have. We are always trying to fill up that empty feeling, trying to find self-actualization. The process of trying, walking alone, those dark times and feeling are not easy. Once you are able to step out of it, the tiring process is worth it. But many of us gave up while trying....will i be one of them. True, i have a strong mentality but i doubt i could last that long.................. Taiwan trip is next week but i am not looking forward to it...it is only a short escape from my misery. There's this regret that i can't overcome...past years i thought i had..but in the end it wasn't...everything just kept flowing back. When will this feelings just evaporate away.....if only memories can be erased. Like dust, will those good memories change and leave?
